Life=Life=Life=Life

Sometimes, God, you crack me up. Sometimes, I cannot believe how amazing this life is.

So Sunday afternoon, I was home all day-I mudded the living room, I read my book, I took my dog for a long bike ride. Later on, I was writing in my journal, feeling so unmotivated to write because I feel like I have nothing important to say right now, I am just busy. The first words I wrote were, "What are you doing here?" As in, what is my plan and what do I want to do with my life. I didn't end up writing more than a couple pages (and PS Hanna I am almost finished with the journal you gave me before I left for Montana! I used it quite a bit to vent and write down all the new experiences I had) and all of it was very mundane, very robotic sounding, as if I were writing just to write. I tried to turn it into a freewrite but couldn't lose that sense of control like I used to be able to in high school.

What am I doing here???

Sunday night I am up in my room on my computer and checking me email. I get one from a woman named Terry. I had sent a message to the two modeling agencies in NH with my basic stats and a few pictures friends have taken and Terry was from one of them. Her message went like this, "I have received and reviewed your e-mail and your photos. I can see that your dance and athletic background, as well as your ethnic background have provided you with a fabulous look! In reviewing your stats however, your height would limit you to acting for television or film and perhaps commercial print modeling. Male catalog and fashion models must be 5’11” – 6’ 1”. If you have an interest in learning more about our acting division and the potential for commercial print modeling, please contact me so that we can make arrangements for you to come into the agency for an audition. You may contact me via return e-mail or call me at the agency. I hope to hear from you soon, Terry."

Shwahhh?????????????? For real for real?????

For real indeed. I have my audition tomorrow! They want me to come in and read a quick script and chat and take it from there! I am so pumped!!!!! Then last night, another agency called me!!!! Friggin nuts! So I realized that with the effort I put in by sending that email and giving something a try, God gave me back just as much and opened the doors for who knows what! I am in a state of disbelief! We'll see how it goes....