New Year New Me

Energy.

We are constantly sensing it. We are full of it. We create it and move it. We transmit it and receive it.

Energy is powerful. Necessary. Abundant. There is no such thing as good or bad energy, just energy.

I brought in the New Year on a euphoric wave of energy. I was miraculously able to step outside of my comfort zone, right out of myself, and give my energy to the beautiful people I spent New Year's Eve with, and it was amazing! It's incredible what can happen when we stop being people and become beings.

I leveled myself with those three others, which was no small feat. Had the edge not been synthetically removed, I would never have been so honest with myself and anyone else. I decided this is how I wanted the new year to be, "I, too, think that 2009 was one of the heaviest years in my life. Never before have I felt so weighed down and stuck in one spot. I haven't been able to connect with anyone else in a long time. It's hard sometimes for me to be myself and be open with others, but that is exactly what I want in 2010: transparent energy. I can see the energy I emit as a whitish-yellowish aura, shrouded in black on the outsides. I want to get rid of the black and let myself free."

Our group energy was flowing free, exploding wildly and never fast enough. From the top of our heads and the heat of our breath, it was evoked and sprang to life. It was palpable and I swear I felt us creating it. It felt like we had the power to lift up off the ground if we wanted. It felt like I was talking to God...no, beyond that. It wasn't like being suspended and immersed at the same time. It felt like what I would imagine Heaven or the Universe to be like. Imagine if you could feel the energy of every living thing, every soul, past or present, a net of energy all connected and all protecting. I knew we had the power to make changes and I felt we asked the universe what we wanted in 2010 and she listened. Finally, I was connected. Within seconds the universe responded and comforted me.

Ever since I have been feeling great about myself. This is the month that I will get a job offer, I can feel it. This is the year that I find myself out and am shown who I am and what I am here to do. No longer will my brain limit me, correct me, nor chastise, reprimand, make me feel guilty, make me feel trapped. There is no cap and there are no limits to what you can do in life and what makes you happy. Only yourself. I will not defend myself. I would let anyone in to feel this energy because the threat has been removed, the threat of myself! There is no higher moral ground than doing what you believe in, but standing up for something just because that's the way you were brought up, or that's what your parents believe in, or because society has deemed something this way or that is complete defeat. I can't allow any more sanctimonious ideologies to enter my being because when you develop and defend one definition of what is "right" you have automatically created a definition of "wrong", i.e. anything other than what you believe is "right". It was too close minded. It was literally closing the energy passageway that connects me to you. There I am! There is anyone you want to be. Anything. Everything. It's at our fingertips and it's passing through us and it's EXCITING because it is limitless. That is what human beings are, completely limitless. Our brains are massive, powerful energy conducting organs and I think our purpose in life is to utilize that energy that comprises us.