Yeah the whole my mom not having a job thing is getting really old. It's times like today when I wanna shake her in hopes of raising some ambition and motivation to get out there and get a job. She is in a tough position, and the economy is laughing in our faces, but seriously, it's been 3 and a half months of coasting on unemployment, my contribution, and the small income she makes taking care of her friend's elderly mother.

So last night I come home from gymnastics and one of my friends had told me about a job fair in Portsmouth. So I tell my mom about it. Today she's taking care of Miss Mary (the old lady) and I asked her, "Well, what do you guys have to do. Maybe you can stop in real quick and scope it out." (I mean how integral is it for Miss Mary to get to Walmart RIGHT after her haircut?) My mom was inflexible on this. I understand respecting your elders, but at what cost to yourself and your family?

I wish she could make a huge profit by selling our house and just move into a nice little condo that won't need as much work, won't cost as much, and will be 10000x easier to maintain. I wanna yell, "WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO COME THE END OF THE SUMMER WHEN I WILL BE LEAVING NH???" I do not want to take a new internship in a new place and be burdened by old worries at home. It's like as the momentum in my life picks up, the burdens and worries come down harder and faster. I want to start living my life freely. I'm feel like I'm too young to start taking care of my mother.

What can you do, but keep doin'? Take it one day at time. God will answer all my questions in time.